Well, well, well pt2

Hi. I’m readjusting my expectations yet again. I have a feeling this is what this process is going to be like… me realizing things and readjusting. Anyway, my current goal is going to be to finish one story. LOL Yep. I have to, have to start small because a huge goal to focus on is too much. Obviously I still have my ultimate goal, but I need to narrow my focus in the meantime so that I don’t get so overwhelmed and intimidated into non-action.

Yesterday I picked up Kiss Me Someone by Karen Shepard and I just started crying. It’s brilliant. And of course I went straight into this whole thing about how I’ll never write anything good because how could I?! Karen Shepard has already don it so I can just pack it up now! Smh.

I think I’ve been really married to the idea that I need to write 1,000 words a day in order to be making “real progress” with the stories. Even writing that out, it sounds harsh/crazy and so I need to understand that planning or outlining or brainstorming, whatever, is just as important as writing however many words a day. It helps me with my vision for the story and I really need that in order to stay on track or else I just completely lose focus and then the story takes a turn and then I feel the need to scrap it. So it’ll give me a sense of direction and that’s all I really need. Is a sense of direction, a framework to write within and then later I can break through it if I need to… okay. Off to work!!